Jus' sayin'

Asian girls with curves are delectable.

No discrimination, but living on the West Coast for so long gets you kind of hooked.

It's one of those summers so far

I know that I have to do some things.

And I am pushing them in front of me.

At least I wake up knowing that I have to do them.

the more things change the more stay the same

I wish I could enjoy people without figuring out why I like being with them.
It's a completely complex and confusing mechanism that takes place when I am by myself.
I've just moved into a new place on a student residence, and I'm living with business students. Very nice people, eccentric, out-going, and very kind to someone who isn't in their program and hasn't known them for the longest time.
And yet... I'm here, finding mistakes immediately to dislike them when they are not being nice, and when I turn away, I feel that I am enjoying their niceness because it is them being nice to me! Yeah. I'm accentuating their niceties,  feeding off their positive energies, and basically wishing I were exploiting them in the end - like that is all that they are good for me.

This is why I have troubles finding friends. I admit to myself that I am living off of others advantageous traits, etc.

Cooking it up. In the end, I think I am overthinking it, and wishing I were that negative. I just can't admit that I need friends like them.

Two years later...

This nigga is back. Better, badder, stronger. With the power to move you, with the power to groove you.

Also, learned from all the whiny shit here. So, let's say that that was a personal, emotional experience I had to go through.

Learned a lot. About myself. About them. About life in general.

Gun fever.