Almost a week

And I've learned so much.
About myself, about you.

But can I use it without hurting either of us?

No.

That's the problem.

If I use what I've learned and what I want to put into work for myself... I'll end up hurting myself and you.
If I use what I've learned and what you seem to want at this very moment... I'll end up hurting myself.

The problem is: either way, I have to learn how to cut ties with you. I don't want to, as much as it pains, I don't want to lose you.

Sure, naive and optimistic as we both are, we both want to maintain a friendship after this, but it'll be awkward, no matter what either of us say, think or wish for right now.


I want to break free from this. I believe that things can be better, without tears, but from this point of time and place... it'll be difficult, and it'd require something that I cannot possibly achieve.

Fuck it. It's so hard being sentient, empathetic, and caring
for someone
who
does not
understand
when
they
hurt
you.

Or understands various other factors that seem not to bother you at all.

At least I'm getting it off my shoulder in some way.




I wish you would see what I see.